This is who i am

I asked all my friends whether i am a bad person or not. I got a few replies but one shone above the rest. Instead of answering my question he defined me to who i am. What he doesnt know is the definition he gave about me is who i truly am. Zuko this ones for you, i only know you a few months but your bound to be one of my closest friends forever.

Zuko's Definition:

Well that is difficult for me to answer, cos I have only seen your nice side… I’m not saying you have a nasty side, I just have never experienced that side of you if you do have one! You have only been nice to me so I only have good thoughts and judgments for you!

Personality wise you are very strong, powerful but yet kind and soft at the same time so many might mistaken your bold, powerful personality negatively and see it as a threat or you just being horrible!

But you must remember we were all made to be different (UNIQUE), and different people will see different people differently. What Is important is that you accept yourself for who you are, before you worry about what others think of you!

Zuko your one of the few people i can really talk to about anything and whats important is that your one of the few people who really pays attention and defines true friendship. thanks for being a friend and from me to you "True Friends Last A Lifetime"

Give us time to find us again

When i was told that line, i sat there and thought "What? What the hell does that mean?"! Sometimes i tend to not pick up instantly what things mean and that i guess was one of my moments. After thinking about that infamous line, i can finely say i know what it means.But as i have written in one of my other posts, somethings can be defined differently by people as everyone differs.

So well in my case as far as that line goes (the title) i think that is significantly saying that maybe just maybe there is a second chance if we put our minds to it and just grow from what happen in the past and let time open a path way to things better. i could be wrong and grasping at absolutely nothing or i may just have hit the nail on its head.Either way i dont get to find out anytime soon whether i am right or wrong. Which really actually sucks cause i have absolutely no patience what so ever. Oh well i use to have the patience of a saint but that slowly faded away.

Maybe this is what i need to get my patience back to the way it use to be.Or maybe this is just exactly what it is a break up that may end up as a make up or a break up that will stay a break up. Interesting how many explanations or thoughts can come from one line, its quite the shocker aint it? Oh well maybe i should just let sleeping dogs lie but then again i tend to like an adrenalin rush so now and again so may just wake this situation up with one of my many talented ways.

lets see how this pans out, will i give it time or wont i?

Lost

Have you ever had a moment in your life when you feel so lost yet you knew something would happen for you to get this feeling? One things for sure it is one weird feeling that i really dont like and it tends to happen to me alot. I think i should ask the question, what can i do to prevent this feeling? For now all i can do is ride it out and see where it takes me. Phhheeeewwww few minutes ago i realised that i have been dismissed from someone's life AGAIN. Now i have that lost feeling again, cause i really didnt know it would happen. But i think i know why yet im not going to assume and jump to all sorts of weird reasons. ill just leave it be and hope for the best, whatever the best really is in this instant.

Kinda makes me think if who i am and how i am is really good for me or is it just the people in my life. One thing i know for sure is that whats best for me right now is just to over look all the negitivity happening around me right now and just move along with what makes me happy. Which is really the simple things in life, listening to music, watching movies and playing games. Maybe that would distract me from current happenings.

As for the person who recently took the step of removing me from their life. Well if there is anything i did wrong to deserve this then fair enough deleting me was the right thing to do. It would then be understandable as to why removing me was the best option for you. If there is another reason for why this has happen then i guess lol there is nothing i can do but to understand why it was done. Just know that i was always honest with you in everything i said and everything i felt. So i am sorry if i had done you wrong!!

Hurt

What is hurt?

If you selected 1000 people and put each one in a room on their own and gave them 10 minutes to think of what the word hurts mean to them and going back to check what their reply would be. You would get 1000 different answers, some would be in the same line as others and some would have a whole new different definition to the word. To me hurt as an entire essence is a good thing for a person. Somehow to me its the only way people get the whole one of two choices: Learn from it or let it pull you down!!

Lets see over the past say two months i have been getting hurt in many ways from different aspects. 90% of the people in my life didnt even know i was going through a hurtful time in my life. Why? Cause i always walked with a smile on my face and continued to be me. Helping others with what is going wrong in their lives, till one day when, the person i least expected would pay attention and give me good advice did just that. I have to say that it is not an easy task chosing to rather learn from it but hey it is all worth it. At the end of the day i look at the hurt i experienced over the past few weeks and can say that surely there are people out there that is probably going through something much worse then what i am going through.

All in all hurt is good, you learn from it and let it guide you along your path to recovery. that way you may get into the same situation again but just this time you would know how to handle it and how to face it cause you have like they say been there, done that, bought the t shirt and burned it. Once you make a decision that is well suited for you and only you, coming outta hurt stick to it. Thats the only way you will get over it, learn from it and smile about it.

Tomorrow is another day and its a brighter day~~

A bit delayed but here it is The New Year 2008

A new year is upon us and for some it started out to be good and for others well lets just say they dont have reason to be happy or just feel that 2008 is not the year for them.

My 2008 started off well, i enjoyed coming into 2008 knowing that it would be a different year. not only cause its a leap year but because i just had this strong sense that things would be different for me this year. 2007 wasnt really a good year for me but at the end of the day i made it through into the new year with a smile on my face. some people would say well your a woman anything can happen to you no matter how bad it is you will still manage to smile at the end of it. sometimes i agree with that sometimes i dont.

Three months into 2008 and things arent really going as planned, so it has currently gone from good to bad. in all aspects of my life but i see light at the end of my tunnel cause i have decided to go by the saying "What is to be is up to me" So with that i say the only person who can get us outta the rut we tend to find ourselves in beside the almighty is no one else but ourselves. Its like putting pen to paper without the ink there will not be a book or a note etc.

So heres to 2008, out with the old in with the new!

Most of all enjoy of second of it!!